the numbers

i saw the numbers
ouch!
it hurts
like a slap on my face
whose fault is it?
*sigh*
i knew the answers
it was mine
my fault
my ignorance
my... foolishness

i tried to reason
tried hard not to frown
or cry
i did this to me
serve me right
i should just slap myself
for behaving like this
like a fool

*sigh*
i just hope things will get better
and i'll find what i'm looking for
which i still try to figure out
*sigh*
yeah, it's sad, really.