i could still see that girl. she was probably ten or eleven. standing alone on the stage in front of hundreds of strangers trying to compose herself. i could see her trembling hands and feet, heck, her whole body was shaking like a leaf. she heard the questions, but she couldn't answer because her mouth was so dry and her lips were like glued together. however, she tried her best to answer the given questions. she could feel the silence deafening her. the merciless staring and judging from the people seated in front of her was too much for her to handle. she could even hear someone laughing at her or maybe it was just in her head. she quickly answered the question with whatever courage that she had and run off stage. it was so embarrassing that she felt ashamed of herself. she felt like she had failed those who trust her and had high expectation on her and the most regrettable thing was that she felt she had failed herself.
the incident was just a small part of her life from her childhood and she hated to revisit the time again. she never recovered from the self blaming and up till now still wonder how or what should she do to overcome that experience? she wanted to be free from those regrets and be a new, confident person.
Quoted from someone; "Speak your mind even though your voice shakes!!!"
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