21 years of living on planet earth

2nd May is my birthday. nothing special really, just a reminder that i'm getting older and should be getting wiser and stronger i guess. i don't think my life is that happy or fulfilling or satisfying or whatever, but i also don't think it's meaningless or worthless because as bad as i am, i still think that my life does worth something or so i hope.

i've never been that kind of friend who would remember my friends birthday (yeah, i'm not a good friend) or give them presents or what. so, i didn't really expect anybody to remember my birthday or do anything about it, but i'm glad someone did. she gave me a cake. to be honest, i'm touched. it made me reflect and think why i can't be more like her. 

it made me think why am i so cold? where's the warmth in me gone? i really have no idea. truth be told, i'm really bad in expressing myself and i'm that kind of girl who would cry alone and hide. i think it's just me being ME.

yeah, so enough rant for tonight. i hope i will be a better person and achieve great things in life or so. ciao. :)