Uncertainties

reach out

open up

express yourself

life's short

time's running out

tomorrow

will it be too late?

i hope not.

step by step

endure. persevere. survive

one more day passed

i'm still here

wondering

what ifs

what could have been

if i did a little bit better

if i tried a little bit harder

something would have been better than nothing

(*sigh)

something is definitely better than nothing!

Suicide; Not an option

Suicide

I’ve thought about that

To just end this misery

To just give up and vanish

To just stop

Suicide

I’ve never tried it

I’m too timid, too scared

My parents would be worried

And i don’t want them sad

Suicide

Is not an option

Even when life gets too tiring

Even when you feel that you’ve had enough

There’ll be no excuse apt enough

To commit suicide.

what i fear

One more step

Increasing heartbeats

Deafening silence

Merciless stares

Are they judging me?

Perhaps.

One last step

Sweating palms

Trembling like a leaf

Pulling myself together

Are they laughing at me?

Perhaps.

With every step I took

I felt smaller

inferior

insecure

But I’ve made up my mind

No matter what I’ve to overcome

And rise above this fear

Triumphantly.

Broken people

It was sad to see beautiful people

Being tossed to the

ground, broken

Being broken by the people they loved, miserable

Being played like a toy, useless

I did feel for them

Their stories so heavy and dark

Represented their own nightmares

That they’d rather not share

I understood very well

I knew it wasn’t easy

I admired their will to move on

While hoping for a better tomorrow.

Hidden things

What hidden should remain hidden

That’s what i always thought

The dark past

The fragments of nightmare

That i’d rather not share

Not because they’ll laugh

Not because they didn’t care

But because of me

The conflicting me

That keep doubting myself

Until i myself feel tired

To keep going  on.

Life & Imperfection

I’ve seen people suffering

Drowning

Losing themselves

In imperfection

People will judge

Some will laugh

Some will criticize

But it doesn’t really matter

Fears are around

Haunting everyone

Without a solid reason

So, stand strong

Lift your face and smile

Live your life

And die knowing

You’ve done your very best.